maybe you can write or e-mail to Kelly, she will understand you and support you 2, as she read it. Kelly also loves to help people she's a huge support to everyone, especially to all her fans. and you have to believe and have faith in yourself , your great and you rock, you even won prices with the Trivia Contest, because you we're on third place, and that's really good. See you're just a good a person and you have a lot of friends, you have all your Kelly fan buddy's and we help you trough this. It's good that you didn't cut yourself for 4 days, well done, but you have to keep faith, that you stop doing it, because we don't wanna loose ya, your a great person and it's really cool when your on-line. So keep faith in yourself and believe and let the other people of the place where you come from suck, if they hate you, then you don't have to cut yourself, your better then them, their not worth it.